hmmmm.

im just a bottle of water. nothing else. no much help to anyone.

todae is the 2nd already. i wonder is this a good thing. well in return i see that his communication is more obvious to anyone le. well i dun mind this 'huh???' continues to take place. well it seems that nowadays my actions did help in one way or another. just know that by doing this, i am feeling a little haiz.... well indeed - u gain something, u lose something. well i dunno is this call contentment or wadsoever, but i know that im not myself usually this few days. i know. i want. but dunno u know? u want? i dunno. this who u think is an avoidance. i agree. i know if i continues to like that, the bottle will be shut again, and of course i will become who im before. well maybe its good baa. maybe it seems that im not supposed to be here in the 1st place. maybe i shouldnt communicate with xiaowei and tell her my desires. maybe music is wad i really need and want. maybe... maybe... haiz... well jay chou - i admire u. your songs are indeed nice. lol. dunno why. emo baa. wahahas. but still this songs wont solve the problem. i agree. but i dun want anyone to get involve too. well everyone haf their problems and they are surfacing le. of course everyone keep it low and solve them. him, him, him, him, her, her, her and much more. i know that u all have problems. i want to be your listening ears. but it seems that i dun haf this opportunity. i know already. i should not even think that i haf the chance. i should not even carry this hope around mi. i dunno. coz who im to you that you will be willing to share your problems with mi?? hahas. cant answer rite....

well this 2 days is kinda of unique. well i agree that im not myself usually. i know my actions are kinda of wierd nowadays. too many things wanna know. too many things cannot know. just like neko-chan, she wanna know it but not given the chance. i told myself in the past - when its time for you to know, you will know. this phrase is not as powerful as the past le. i agree. i know my weakness. i know my flaws. everyone can see them. and of course this is getting bad le. this blog is indeed my bottle of feelings. throw them all here. throw them all out. but no matter how much i write, it doesnt seems to get off my physical self. moan.... moan somemore....

holiday coming. holiday coming. after 'that thing' is over, i think maybe its time for me to be in low profile. then slowly, discretely, without creating any commotion or whatever, disappear baa. hmmmm. sounds cool to me. but will it works?

i really wanna cry and cry out loud.
i dun think i can bear with it sooner or later le.
but i dun wish that day to come.
otherwise its marks the end le....